crazy day

What do I need to do get it though my families head that she is sick. But it goes though one ear and out the fucking other ear. Ugh!!!!! It's just one of those days.

Just the beginning

Taking care of some who is mentally sick is very hard on you mentally too. No one bothers to tell u how draining it is on your mind. They make u second guess yourself all the time. One minute u didn't right the next minute u r doing it all wrong and r worthless. You remind yourself over and over that it the disease. Wait disease is the wrong word I want to use. You know that it is death talking cause that is what is happening u r watching your love one die in front of your eyes. No it's not mean to say at all.

Don't get me wrong I love my grandma is/was my best friend. (I use is/was cause you never know what u r about to get.) I tell her everything, she was the first to know I was pregnant, that my ex was leaving me and she was there when I married my true love. We have been though a lot. So now it is my turn to take care of her. Nothing will happen to her while I am here.

Let's see where tomorrow takes use.